**Part 1**
I spent the entire month of June staring at the small digital clock on our microwave while it ticked past midnight, wondering if my chest was finally going to stop tightening.
It never did. It just stayed locked in that weird, sour kind of ache that comes from living on four hours of sleep and cold coffee.
My sister Chloe is thirty-three and I am nineteen, which means we grew up in different houses even if we share the same roof.
When she got pregnant last year, everyone acted like it was some kind of miracle to celebrate, mostly because Chloe spent most of her twenties drifting from one bad apartment to another while my mother covered her rent.
Then the baby arrived, and Chloe realized that babies do not come with an off switch.
She got her first child support check on a Tuesday, and by Thursday she had a new boyfriend named Marcus and a sudden, burning need to reclaim her youth. I was taking two summer classes at the community college, working twenty hours a week at the local pharmacy, and coming home to scrub the grease off our mother’s stove and manage her diabetes meds.
Chloe figured that made me the logical choice for her personal assistant.
“I’ve got to run out for a bit, Mya,” she would say, already halfway into her favorite leather jacket with her keys jangling against the hallway table. “Marcus is taking me to that spot downtown. You’ve got the monitor, right?”
I barely had time to look up from my organic chemistry textbook before the front door clicked shut.
The first week, I just rolled with it because I loved my little niece Maya, who smelled like warm milk and soft cotton. I told myself it was only temporary, that Chloe was just adjusting to the massive shock of being a mother at thirty-three with no real savings.
I told myself a lot of things back then.
By week three, the reality of it had settled into my bones like a heavy winter damp. Chloe was sleeping until noon while I got up at six to make sure our mother had her breakfast and insulin, then rushed off to my shift at the pharmacy, then sat through three hours of chemistry where the formulas just blurred into grey smudges.
Whenever I tried to bring it up, Chloe looked at me like I was speaking a foreign language.
“You don’t have a husband or kids, Mya,” she said one afternoon while she was curling her hair in the bathroom mirror, leaving hairspray dust all over my toothbrush. “You have all the time in the world. Besides, family helps family. That’s just how it works.”
That was her favorite phrase. Family helps family.
It was the magic spell she cast over every single dirty diaper, every 3:00 AM feeding, and every unpaid utility bill that she ignored while buying new boots online.
The breaking point didn’t arrive with a dramatic scream or a shattered plate. It crept in quietly on a Thursday evening while my mother was sleeping upstairs and the house smelled faintly of burnt toast because I had gotten distracted trying to balance our grocery budget on fifty dollars.
My phone buzzed on the kitchen counter right next to my notes on cellular respiration.
It was a text from Chloe. *Be back late. Marcus wants to hit the club scene in Dayton. Don’t let the baby cry too long, she gets fussy around nine.*
I stared at the glowing little screen for a long time. My pharmacy paycheck had cleared that morning, and after chipping in for Mom’s blood pressure meds and our electric bill, I had precisely twelve dollars and forty cents left in my checking account.
Chloe was out drinking gin and tonics with a guy she had known for three weeks while I sat alone in a quiet house with a screaming infant and a mother who needed her oxygen tank checked every six hours.
I didn’t answer the text. I just stood up, walked over to the hallway mirror, and looked at the dark purple circles under my eyes that no amount of concealer could fix.
I called our Aunt Brenda about twenty minutes later. Brenda lives about three miles away in a small ranch house with a lawn that always looks better than ours. She didn’t answer on the first ring, and I almost hung up, almost let the old guilt pull me back down into the routine of just taking it.
“Mya?” Brenda’s voice crackled through the speaker, sounding raspy and tired. “Is your mother okay?”
“Mom’s sleeping,” I said, and my voice sounded thin, like paper. “Brenda, I can’t do this anymore. Chloe took off again. She hasn’t been home before midnight in five days.”
There was a long pause on the other end of the line, just the sound of a television droning in the background.
“She left the baby with you again?” Brenda asked.
“She didn’t even ask,” I said, and my hand started shaking so hard I had to put the phone on speaker and set it flat on the counter. “She just texted me not to let her cry too long. I asked her about daycare last week and she laughed in my face. She said daycare costs money and we’re family.”
Brenda let out a short, sharp breath that sounded like a dry cough. “Pack a bag.”
“What?”
“Pack a bag for the baby,” Brenda said, her tone suddenly dropping all the warmth it usually carried. “And lock the front deadbolt the second I get there. Don’t leave it unlocked for her.”
